I'll apologize in advance for the slight bit of emotional whiplash in this post. I don't have bipolar, but it might feel a bit like it. As deep in the dark as I am, any little spark gives me a near hysterical moment of something like joy. I appreciate those sparks because they keep me … Continue reading Life, Literary Theory and Other Stuff
Grad School
Grad School, Part Deux
I finished my MS at Portland State last June. Two months later I found myself living and working in Astoria, Oregon by way of several happy accidents. My degree directly applies to my work, which I love, and I made the decision to get it very deliberately. I also knew I was going to get … Continue reading Grad School, Part Deux
Getting Started!
The masters is finished and I can have my life back - I cannot express how delighted I am. Somehow the last two years feels more like two decades. So I'm starting with an in-depth study of Isidora Forrest's new edition of Isis Magic. Over the next three weeks I'll be reading the first nine … Continue reading Getting Started!
actually, i can
So this is my new mantra. It applies to my running, it applies to my masters (soooo very close to done), it applies to coming to Oregon, so many things. Tonight I was able to get started again. Slow for me, but still, a good 5K. And I'm back.
Dad, Portland & Other Stuff
I woke up this morning after dreaming several dreams about my dad. It's not the first time, but it was pretty vivid. I sat and wept for a bit this morning. He's left such a huge hole in my reality. It's been almost three months and the hurt is still acute. I know part of … Continue reading Dad, Portland & Other Stuff
Right, So…
The last month and a half or so has been madness, mostly sourced in work, but also in finding grad school and a new city of residence, starting in June. That city had been slated to be Seattle, but the folks at Antioch University weren't super responsive to anything, the job situation wasn't looking good … Continue reading Right, So…
Good News, Bad Body
I'm sick today. Something going down with my tum, and I have to blame Gab since she's had it since Monday. I'm at work anyway, going to do my school in Quartzsite before I go home to bed. But that's not what I'm going to write about today. I finally had "the talk" with my … Continue reading Good News, Bad Body
So…
I've never had such stress and anxiety that I lost 10 lbs in a week, or couldn't sleep, or simply laid in bed and shook when I tried to sleep. Not even when Jasmine died. I think something has to give. And not my sanity. I'm slowing peeling back the layers of stressors, one-by-one. I've … Continue reading So…
You’ve Waited Long Enough
Man, it's been so long since I updated that I should probably begin with some basics about my status as a human being living on this earth. I’m pleased to report that yes, I’m still human, and yes, I am still living on the planet. At least physically. We (and by “we” I mean myself, … Continue reading You’ve Waited Long Enough
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 