I'm noticing a trend over the last four years, and I don't really like it much, and I don't really know what to do about it. Firstly, depression is becoming a bigger presence. Chalk it up to the weather if you like, but I don't think that's what it is, especially since it can be … Continue reading Disquiet
Dreams
Dreams?
For the past two months or so, I've been having some strange dream experiences. If you know me at all, you'll know that's saying something. I've been a lucid dreamer since I was 9 or so and heard a program on NPR that gave tips on how to develop the skill. My dreams have recognized … Continue reading Dreams?
like a hermit moving through a dark night of the soul
I'm not even sure where to begin. I suppose this isn't a big leap from my last post. I'm sitting here in front of the keyboard, a jumble of words trying to fight for the right to flow from my heart through my hands. Maybe I'll start with what I did today, and see where … Continue reading like a hermit moving through a dark night of the soul
Week Three Recap
Well, my first exciting news is that my mom appears to be following my brother’s lead. She called me this week to let me know the latest on how my dad is haunting her (this week’s episode includes text messages sent from their old, unused cell phone to Waylon and sensing him getting out of … Continue reading Week Three Recap
Dad, Portland & Other Stuff
I woke up this morning after dreaming several dreams about my dad. It's not the first time, but it was pretty vivid. I sat and wept for a bit this morning. He's left such a huge hole in my reality. It's been almost three months and the hurt is still acute. I know part of … Continue reading Dad, Portland & Other Stuff
Dream
Last night I had a dream that I had a baby boy named Aidan. I was at some kind of school reunion, but had to wait in a Catholic church because there wasn't enough room at the school. The church was ornate, with lots of stained glass and deep-colored velvet pews, but it had a … Continue reading Dream
Birds, Blood & Dreams
So toasterstrumpet brought up an interesting point on Facebook this morning. I noted via Twitter that I passed two dead birds this morning, both being eaten by other birds. One was at my apartment complex, the other here in front of my office. Her response was to note that it's rather Morrighan-like. After thinking about … Continue reading Birds, Blood & Dreams
Happy Birthday, Nina!
Today is Nina's 1st birthday. We're just doing a family thing for her and will have a cake and open the presents that have been sent. I'll take pictures and we'll either post them here or at Ofoto, and I'll post a link here. Last year on this day, at this time, they had just … Continue reading Happy Birthday, Nina!
Body Parts & Fire
I know you don't want to read yet another entry about how my body aches, but damn, we worked my shoulders good today. Last week was very good -- some soreness, but not of the debilitating kind. The scale is inching down, though my impending period will probably halt that somewhat. Anyway, for anyone who … Continue reading Body Parts & Fire
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I am incredibly frustrated with my body right now. Not only could I not do Pilates this week because of my stupid back, I also have some kind of respiratory infection that is keeping me from doing any cardio. WTF? It seems so damned unfair that when I am well and truly motivated to Do … Continue reading blah
