I spent the last year on Cymbalta and boy was it a Tower year. I don't think the two are coincidental. I quit my job, lost some friends, lost my spiritual group, lost my joy, lost my freaking MIND in so many ways. I spent a month or three on suicide watch. I've never been … Continue reading when you’re not on the right meds
Beltane Reflections
from this past Sunday's service at the Pacific Unitarian Universalist Fellowship in Astoria, OR: Happy Mother’s Day to those who celebrate. I am privileged to have (and hopefully BE) a mother worthy of celebration. That is not always the case for people, and I’m sensitive to that today. Mother can be a charged word, right? … Continue reading Beltane Reflections
Evolution?
Since the dissolution of my last group, I've been in deep cocoon. I have a lot of thoughts, have had a lot of epiphanies, but the one that is really working me now is that perhaps I have been searching for something I never really needed - a tradition to work with. Recently I had … Continue reading Evolution?
13 years
This year is no different than any year since 2004 when it comes to this - I am up again in the wee hours of V-Day, thinking about you, Jasmine, and how you'd be navigating this world with nearly 24 years under your belt. Grief ninjas come and go, but there's always the steady ache … Continue reading 13 years
gimme a break
We could really use a break from the Universe and a sense that everything really will be ok. I nearly took a job that pays barely minimum wage because we are in such dire straits, but I think there may be a light on the horizon. I hope so. Utils are starting to be shut … Continue reading gimme a break
burlap & sand
First Draft I sit made of burlap filled with sand an effigy of responsibility blue eyes like buttons twinkle with flat cheer mouth moving mechanically one hand neatly flat on the tabletop nodding saying The Right Things dying inside the other hand hidden below knows the truth clutching a sharp dagger waiting for the signal I … Continue reading burlap & sand
365 tarot spreads: bird’s-eye view spread
So I picked up a copy of Sasha Graham's 365 Tarot Spreads to give myself some structure in getting to know the cards again AND to pick up some cool new spreads. It came last night, so I got started with today's entry - the Bird's-Eye View Spread. The trick with this spread is that … Continue reading 365 tarot spreads: bird’s-eye view spread
a month off
I'm supposed to be using this month to heal some mental health stress-related issues but it's SO. DAMNED. HARD. Besides the fact that there's a lot to do for my consulting gig, we don't have much money this month and all I want to do is run back to the security of a "regular" job … Continue reading a month off
illusive sleep
I read somewhere that our natural sleep cycle includes night waking and afternoon naps. Mine certainly does. If the rest of the world could get on board with that, I might have a chance at sleep sanity. But alas, it does not appear to be so. I realized this year that a lot of the … Continue reading illusive sleep
taking a new name
In the Craft, we are often taught that names have power. We choose names to become or to represent who we are. And sometimes there is a big enough life change that names change too. In my case, I've had two names during my 30-ish years as a Witch. The first name I crafted was … Continue reading taking a new name
