forgiving our fathers by dick lourie maybe in a dream: he's in your power you twist his arm but you're not sure it was he that stole your money you feel calmer and you decide to let him go free or he's the one (as in a dream of mine) I must pull from the … Continue reading forgiving our fathers
My dad told me that when he was young, he'd gotten in trouble for DUI and had to attend alcohol abuse counseling. The counselor he worked with was in recovery himself, and laid down some of the fundamentals of alcoholism, including how the people around you enable alcoholism. When he came home to talk about … Continue reading dark days
After doing a triumphant morning run on Monday, I was caught unaware yesterday by the two year anniversary of my dad's sudden death. It's not that I didn't realize April 9th was coming. It was more that I was busy enough that I kept it out of my mind. My body remembered though. When I … Continue reading Anniversaries Are Neutral
This year will mark the first time in seven years that my dad and I won't be planning Thanksgiving dinner. Ever since we moved back from the Midwest, it's been a "thing." Prior to that, we never really built a Thanksgiving tradition, Jeff and I. Jasmine tended to be in and out of the hospital … Continue reading cooking with my dad
I woke up this morning after dreaming several dreams about my dad. It's not the first time, but it was pretty vivid. I sat and wept for a bit this morning. He's left such a huge hole in my reality. It's been almost three months and the hurt is still acute. I know part of … Continue reading Dad, Portland & Other Stuff
I’d like to start by saying that I’ve never really been “Daddy’s Girl,” but I am every inch my father’s daughter. My dad and I have always shared a bond, been simpatico. He’s always “gotten” me, always understood, was willing to be under fire when other people felt that children should be seen and not … Continue reading Eulogy for Dad
First, dad is home and really out of the woods. He is feeling a bit weak, but okay other than that. Results from the biopsy should be available soon. Thanks again for the prayers and well wishes! Second, I want to think out loud some more about moving. But I also want to apologize to … Continue reading Why Is Everything So Complicated Now?
My dad had his surgery on Thursday and while the procedure itself went well, some dipshit nurse who was supposed to be checking him the night after his surgery missed the fact that he was having blood clots and apparently bleeding somewhere. So yesterday they had to go in again and find out where he … Continue reading Enough Already!
Jeff spoke with the doctors yesterday and here are the latest revelations: The blood tests confirmed that Jasmine is having a form of rejection where there are antibodies in her blood that are attacking her lungs. This form of rejection is rare and the treatment of cleaning the plasma is a new one, albeit one … Continue reading Revelations