This weekend I went from zero to overwhelm in five seconds. It started on Friday, when we watched a livestream of an Authority Zero concert on YouTube. I started crying towards the end, I couldn't even name why, and even typing about it is making me tear up again. I reached out to people I … Continue reading Zero to Overwhelm
Health
Staying Busy
It's been a busy time for me. Even if you're not seeing a journal entry every day, they're happening. Some are just private. I'm realizing that I need to bite off fewer bits of what I'm working on so I don't burn out. Today was a struggle to get going. In addition to what I'm … Continue reading Staying Busy
No Sleep
I knocked myself out last night. I had to. For the past week-ish, I've been waking every hour from vivid dreams - basically, I think I'm waking at the end of every dream cycle I have, and never making it into deep sleep. The dreams are about many things - COVID-19, my dad, Jasmine, things … Continue reading No Sleep
my team of champions
Yesterday's therapy appointment was illuminating. I nearly didn't go because I have a shitty cold, one where I am prone to coughing fits and losing my voice. I generally get one like this once a year, and apparently now is the time. So anyway, I drug my carcass in and as usual, I'm glad I … Continue reading my team of champions
Wild Geese
"WILD GEESE" by Mary Oliver You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you … Continue reading Wild Geese
Rilke, from this morning’s therapy sesh
"GO TO THE LIMITS OF YOUR LONGING" BY RAINER MARIA RILKE translation by Joanna Macy + Anita Barrows God speaks to each of us as he makes us, then walks with us silently out of the night. These are the words we dimly hear: You, sent out beyond your recall, go to the limits of … Continue reading Rilke, from this morning’s therapy sesh
actually, i can
So this is my new mantra. It applies to my running, it applies to my masters (soooo very close to done), it applies to coming to Oregon, so many things. Tonight I was able to get started again. Slow for me, but still, a good 5K. And I'm back.
Things I Want to Remember: Portland RnR Half Marathon 2013
Intense pleasure at the forecast for cool, cloudy, and possibly rainy weather. The truly awesome expo, and being there with the person who inspired me to start this beautiful madness. The Max, packed with other marathoners, and feeling pride in the way Trimet assisted racers. Our first approach to the waterfront, and being amongst the … Continue reading Things I Want to Remember: Portland RnR Half Marathon 2013
Things I Want to Remember: Cinco de Mayo 10K 2013
The surprise of nerves, worry about being last. I only had three safety pins, so one corner of my bib flapped in the breeze. The police officer at the almost halfway point who said, "You're doing great, keeping a good pace!" Looking back and realizing I was far from being last. The two women ahead … Continue reading Things I Want to Remember: Cinco de Mayo 10K 2013
So Much to Say
It's been almost two weeks since I last posted, and it feels like two months. Boston. That happened. And I wanted to write about it, but I ran instead. I found Tualatin Hills Nature Park and fell in love with the trails. I wogged there two weekends in a row and will likely make this … Continue reading So Much to Say
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 