For Beltaine, I had to write a short response to love and fertility deities and mythologies. In particular, I was supposed to contrast them with the Adonis myth. I was kind of surprised by what I came up with. Youth, lust, possession, lack of consent, immaturity, impatience… all things that seem to function in most … Continue reading Wuv… Twu Wuv…
Marriage
News of the World (or at least my small pixel of it)
I thought I'd take advantage of a relatively quiet morning at work to do an update. I had one going last week, but it seemed kinda flip after I wrote it, so I scrapped it. Basically it said, "Things are good." Heh. And they are, for the most part. Thank the gods for Prozac, it … Continue reading News of the World (or at least my small pixel of it)
The Weekly
What a week – the first part of the week, I was feeling sad, and a little down. I spent a bit of time hiding away in my head, wondering if I was “doing it right” in regards to what I said last week about not having trouble with not drinking and positing that it … Continue reading The Weekly
Week Three Recap
Well, my first exciting news is that my mom appears to be following my brother’s lead. She called me this week to let me know the latest on how my dad is haunting her (this week’s episode includes text messages sent from their old, unused cell phone to Waylon and sensing him getting out of … Continue reading Week Three Recap
Week Two (and a half) Recap
This week I started back to school and wow, that really threw my schedule and good intentions into disarray. I didn't make it to the gym and my schedule got whacked enough that I had a hard time getting up to meditate. I didn't drink and I didn't go to a meeting. Right now, I'm … Continue reading Week Two (and a half) Recap
Wait, That’s It?
Today I still had a hard time getting my mind to sit still. I worked with the expanded to micro-awareness tool, which helped, but then thoughts about the day (how am I going to track my intervals when I run/walk?) (will we go to Kennedy School like we discussed yesterday?) kept tripping in, and I … Continue reading Wait, That’s It?
October Stream of Consciousness
Today I decided that a good way, for now, to begin to reconstruct a spiritual connection is Thorn's new venture, Fiat LVX. If you're not sure what that is, there's information on her website. Is anyone else progressing through this? The basic concept/structure is that "each month comes in two parts: a theory video and … Continue reading October Stream of Consciousness
no words
Man, I did NOT want to get out of bed this morning. Literally, and not in a cozy, let's settle in kind of way. My body is still adjusting to the IUD I had inserted in August, and it is really messing with my hormonal balance. That, and unexpected shit with the car rental for … Continue reading no words
Thoughts About, Well, Everything
I've spent a great deal of time lately trying to figure out why I'm struggling with depression and have been for a few years. I've been trying to tease out the unraveling threads, to figure out what the factors are in what feels, at times, like I'm losing my mind. I'm not suicidal by any … Continue reading Thoughts About, Well, Everything
Clothes Shopping
I had to go clothes shopping Saturday for my interview. I have a suit, but it's pretty outdated and anyway, I wanted something new. I hate clothes shopping. I always have, but now more than ever because dressing rooms are so ... unfriendly, particularly to chubby chicks like me. As I expected, it pretty much … Continue reading Clothes Shopping
