Last night I had my first mentoring meeting with Cedar and I think it went really well. She sent me an agenda and we managed to cover it all, including the planning of a very cool full moon ritual on Friday that I am really looking forward to. This year we are working with the … Continue reading First Mentor Meeting with Cedar
Author: thefirespiral
2004 Sapling Studies
Reclaiming Core Curriculum Rites of Passage The Rites of Passage focuses on dreams, myths and language, using traditional and non-traditional tales and techniques to create a personal rite of passage. Through storytelling, trance, release work and dreams we receive our challenge(s), meet our helpers, work through our blocks and emerge renewed, reborn. This class culminates … Continue reading 2004 Sapling Studies
Gab’s Journey
Jasmine and Gabrielle's room is a mess, too full of stuff and furniture that sadly needs to be upgraded. We had started this process before Jasmine died and the girls had been looking forward to new beds, dressers and desks. Now finishing the process is all weird because we don't want Gabrielle to feel like … Continue reading Gab’s Journey
3 of Swords
So many of you have encouraged me not to censor myself here and I really appreciate that. I cannot think of a time in my life when I have felt so ripped open and raw. I guess that's logical and when I write it, I have a moment of "duh-ness" but it still surprises me … Continue reading 3 of Swords
Oceans
Last night, an ocean of tears. I'm not sure exactly why so much, but it started when I found Jasmine's birth certificate while looking for Jeff and Gabrielle's. We have to have them to go to Jamaica. I pulled the two folded-up pieces of paper out of the filing cabinet and the first one fell … Continue reading Oceans
Acts of Reverence and Mirth
Jasmine's wake was a beautiful celebration of her life and I just want to share moments of it that stand out in my mind, in no particular order: Drumming with about thirty people, children with shakers, drumming a heart of community that sustains us. Faces from my childhood, family and friend, faces from college, faces … Continue reading Acts of Reverence and Mirth
Hole Not Whole
Wide open hole Gaping, bloody Not whole Try to push it closed Seal it, erase it Pull the edges close A body torn asunder A member missing The ache of phantom pain Wide open whole Healing, itching Hole
Forays into the After World
How can I begin to write of what it's like to live without Jasmine? Today Gabrielle went back to school. She came home and told us it was "okay," but then tonight, after bedtime, she cried and told me how much she missed her, how it was so hard to walk home from school without … Continue reading Forays into the After World
Jasmine’s Memory
Today is Jasmine's memorial service at the UU church. I know it will be beautiful. I am so touched by how many people have come to be here from all corners of the United States. A friend of mine wrote a song for her that is so amazing -- it captures her perfectly. I don't … Continue reading Jasmine’s Memory
Embrace the Change
We came home yesterday after receiving Jasmine from the funeral home. Jeff had made a seat for her in the front seat of the truck, with all her stuffed animals and her quilt from the hospital. She would have been so smug about riding in the front seat. We drove home, and when we got … Continue reading Embrace the Change
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 