I woke up this morning after dreaming several dreams about my dad. It's not the first time, but it was pretty vivid. I sat and wept for a bit this morning. He's left such a huge hole in my reality. It's been almost three months and the hurt is still acute. I know part of … Continue reading Dad, Portland & Other Stuff
Death & Grief
Eulogy for Dad
I’d like to start by saying that I’ve never really been “Daddy’s Girl,” but I am every inch my father’s daughter. My dad and I have always shared a bond, been simpatico. He’s always “gotten” me, always understood, was willing to be under fire when other people felt that children should be seen and not … Continue reading Eulogy for Dad
Hiatus from News!!
I'm sure everyone reading this knows about the shootings in Arizona on Saturday. I was going to say I wasn't personally affected, meaning I didn't know anyone personally who was shot, but I was personally affected. It was a rotten day. Absorbing all the reaction was pretty overwhelming, and it brought back some surprising things … Continue reading Hiatus from News!!
5 Years
We're having a five year memorial for Jasmine on Saturday - if you'd like to come or if you'd like to send something for me to read (a memory, a story, whatever) or put on her altar (pictures, objects, etc.), please let me know ASAP. We'll get started at 3 and should be done by … Continue reading 5 Years
You Can’t Always Get What You Want
Last year at this time we were getting a phone call from the transplant coordinator letting us know there were lungs available for Jasmine. Another family had made the decision we had to make six weeks ago. We went to see Scooby Doo tonight and one of the trailers before the film was for the … Continue reading You Can’t Always Get What You Want
Blowin’ Through the Jasmine in My Mind
I woke up at 5:30 on Saturday morning and knew I wasn't going back to sleep. I got up quietly, slipped on a dress and went outside. Considering how late the previous night's activities went on, I wasn't expecting to run into anyone else. When I stepped outside, it was cloudy and cool, with a … Continue reading Blowin’ Through the Jasmine in My Mind
And The Van Steenberg Family Resides…
Before we left for Arizona, I said to a few of my friends that I really didn't think we'd be moving back to Arizona, that the trip back would probably just be a confirmation of my feeling at the time that we would stay in Bloomington. I was wrong. And I don't know how, or … Continue reading And The Van Steenberg Family Resides…
10:15 Saturday Night
Okay, so yesterday we went to see Harry Potter AND the party was a smashing success, due to the fab-u-lous people hosting it, and I had a great time. Signs of said good time include bruised fingers from banging on drums and smudged mascara that has transferred itself from my top eyelashes to the wrinkly … Continue reading 10:15 Saturday Night
I’m A Loser, Bay – Bee
Criminy, I'm such a LOSER! I don't know what the deal is, but I cannot keep track of my appointments lately to save my pathetic loser life. Couple of weeks ago I stood up my friend for a morning bike ride, which meant, friends and neighbors, she sat on a cold trail waiting for my … Continue reading I’m A Loser, Bay – Bee
Happy Birthday, Nina!
Today is Nina's 1st birthday. We're just doing a family thing for her and will have a cake and open the presents that have been sent. I'll take pictures and we'll either post them here or at Ofoto, and I'll post a link here. Last year on this day, at this time, they had just … Continue reading Happy Birthday, Nina!
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 