Jasmine passed away Saturday, February 14 at about 7:00 PM CST. She fought hard, but her body was just too tired and it was time to let her get her wings. She had been on the ventilator since Tuesday and the doctors tried several different treatments trying to save her. In the end, her lungs … Continue reading We love you, Jasmine.
Writing
Burning Bright
I didn't realize until this evening that it was Friday the 13th, which should be a sign of just how out of it I really am. Today I discussed arrangements for Jasmine's body when she dies. I talked about how I wanted her to die and whether or not I wanted them to wake her … Continue reading Burning Bright
Change, when it comes, cracks everything open
Yesterday afternoon my mom got here, thank the gods. We had a conference with the doctors about Jasmine's biopsy results. It's not good. The best case scenario is that she has an extremely slow recovery -- at least another month on the ventilator -- and changes some meds and when everything is said and done, … Continue reading Change, when it comes, cracks everything open
Not Good
Today, the dreaded phone call. I keep spontaneously bursting into tears and I can hardly type, so please forgive any typos. My fingers aren't working. I guess since I'm sitting it's the equivalent of my legs falling out from underneath me. Jeff called me this morning and said they had to put Jasmine on the … Continue reading Not Good
Stormy Weather
Holy cow! I had no idea so many of you would actually come check this out! Several people have written me in emails and asked for mailing info for Jasmine. The best bet would probably be to send cards and letters to Jeff at Ronald McDonald House, and he can take them in to her. … Continue reading Stormy Weather
Blindfolded
I'm going to St. Louis on Wednesday night... I'm so glad to be going. Jasmine is doing a little better, Jeff says, but it doesn't sound better enough to put my mind at rest. I can't help but feeling like I'm going through the stages of dying with her, except that I'm not with her. … Continue reading Blindfolded
Sad
A whirlwind came with the snow last night -- it was Jeff and a ritual. He showed up at about 7:15 with dinner from China Star. We sat and I ate my honey sesame chicken while he ate garlic chicken -- I had to have at least a bite of the broccoli so that later, … Continue reading Sad
Revelations
Jeff spoke with the doctors yesterday and here are the latest revelations: The blood tests confirmed that Jasmine is having a form of rejection where there are antibodies in her blood that are attacking her lungs. This form of rejection is rare and the treatment of cleaning the plasma is a new one, albeit one … Continue reading Revelations
And Now For Something Completely Diff’rent
I am now on the third attempt at this diary entry. If I don't get it posted this time, it will be lost forever. I suppose I could be smart and start composing in Word so there are more recovery options, but that seems like extra work. Ahem. Anyway. Now that the spontaneity of this … Continue reading And Now For Something Completely Diff’rent
The Boring Life
The most unlikely person has asked me to update my diary... so I will. This one's for you... you know who you are. 😉 Antibodies were found in Jasmine's blood, confirming the theory that she is having a kind of rejection. Her new lungs have an antigen in them that is causing this and it's … Continue reading The Boring Life
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 