Jasmine has slowly started to slide back. The next plan is to replace the plasma in her blood so as to filter out any antibodies that might be attacking her lungs. Today they put the bipap back on her so she could sleep. I have no idea what to think now. On Monday they are … Continue reading One Step Forward, Three Steps Back
Writing
Turkeys on Rollerblades
Today things seems quieter. They are slowly weaning Jasmine down on the bipap machine. The steroid burst started yesterday with some interesting side effects -- hallucinations and amped up emotional outbursts. Yesterday we got to answer questions about reality (as in, "Is this a real bed?" "Is this a real room?") and turkeys on rollerblades … Continue reading Turkeys on Rollerblades
Prayers
We went to Arizona last month for the holidays, leaving on December 23 and returning January 6. While we were there, we stayed in Big River, Prescott and Mesa, respectively. While in Prescott, Jasmine started feeling icky, probably due to the altitude. It's not super high, but high enough to affect someone who already has … Continue reading Prayers
Numbers
The outer wall of Jasmine's world is defined by numbers. She's on x liters of oxygen. Her blood oxygen is x. Her blood pressure is x over x. She gets x milliliters of this med over x hours and on and on it goes. Sometimes when I write updates, all I do is spew numbers … Continue reading Numbers
Bruised Dragonfly Wings
Jasmine is still in ICU -- no real change for better or worse. She is awake and mostly alert most of the time, though she tires very easily. She says she's going to beat this thing. In a nutshell, what is happening is that the tissues of her lungs have some kind of infection. They … Continue reading Bruised Dragonfly Wings
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She's back in ICU, apparently having had a hard time breathing last night. She's on some kind of half-way ventilator and they still don't know what's wrong, other than that it's not rejection. I am going to St. Louis today. I can't live with second guessing anymore. If anyone wants to call, Jeff has the … Continue reading …
Out of ICU
Jasmine is out of ICU and back on her regular ward. The doctors still haven't shared with us what the problem is -- though they may not know yet. At any rate, if they've moved her out to the floor, it's because she's out of any immediate danger. More confirmation from the doctors today that … Continue reading Out of ICU
The St. Louis Epiphany
I keep saying I'm going to write about this move thing, and it keeps getting pushed back. I do have some legitimate reasons, mostly pertaining to Jasmine being in the hospital in St. Louis with Jeff, while I'm here in Bloomington with Nina and Gabrielle. That Jeff and Jasmine are again in St. Louis while … Continue reading The St. Louis Epiphany
Embarking on Active Practice as a Witch
All my life I've been spiritual. I've always known on some level that there was some force that created Nature and all it encompasses and I've always felt dissatisfied with Christian explanations. From the time I was about seven I searched every church I could find looking for answers and never feeling like I'd been … Continue reading Embarking on Active Practice as a Witch
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 