I wanted to write about each individual day in Jamaica, but I think I waited too long. Also, some of the days were sort of ... just like the other days with some small exceptions. So I think, instead, I'll write about the things that stand out in my mind. Somewhere around Sunday my dad, … Continue reading Jamaica Mistake?
Author: thefirespiral
Life After Death?
I found this song last night while surfing Serpentine Music. It was originally released by a band called Velvet Hammer, and was then re-recorded when members of that band formed a new band called Dreamtrybe. You can listen to a sample of the song here. And view the lyrics here. Last night I read most … Continue reading Life After Death?
Interactive
I've been reading a lot about how society, generally in the guise of family and friends, tells grieving parents to "get over it." I have really not found this to be the case (aren't you guys awesome?). However, I feel a desire to think about something else, to not feel this hazy, half-assed depression hanging … Continue reading Interactive
One Year Later
I sent this out last year following Jasmine's transplant. Most of you probably read it then. I post it in memory of a great event in Jasmine's life. Jeff asked me today how it is that there could be so many. "I can breathe!" This delivered in an incredulous and breathy little voice... These words … Continue reading One Year Later
Riding the Cyclone
We did it -- we got stuff done today! Something, not a lot, but better than nothing. We went out this afternoon and tried to buy advance Scooby Doo tickets, but we can't get them till tomorrow. We picked up some parts for the washer (Rowan, you may not want these old things, trust me), … Continue reading Riding the Cyclone
Bitch, Piss & Moan
We are stuck in a quagmire of doing-nothingness. It's a combination of being sick, having Nina and having trouble with motivation. I want to hire someone to help us get the house ready to sell, but Jeff is really resistant. It's driving me crazy. I just want the things done, the sooner the better, so … Continue reading Bitch, Piss & Moan
Pre-Grieving
Nina, Jeff and I are sick. We brought back something from Jamaica that wasn't in our suitcases, evidently. Nina's sick enough that we took her to the doctor, who said that whatever the viral part of this is, she has some kind of bacterial ear infection too, and he put her on amoxicillin. We had … Continue reading Pre-Grieving
Spring Equinox 2004
Last night's ritual was very low-key and informal. Participants included my family, Cedar and her husband and S. We continued the PFC tradition of dying eggs with symbols on them of things we'd like to grow this year, which we will later bury in our prospective gardens. Cedar also had the great idea of taking … Continue reading Spring Equinox 2004
Thoughts on the Before and After Worlds
On February 14, 2004 at 7 PM, my family's world divided into Before and After. There are many events in life that make this division -- birth, marriage, and yes, death. Even each moment of the day carries a breath of Before and After, but it's smaller -- before and after. Before and After worlds … Continue reading Thoughts on the Before and After Worlds
Welcome to Jamaica
Many emails about ignoring Jeff's aunt -- thanks. I knew that was the right answer, I just needed to hear it. Marcy, your idea about sending her a note and mentioning how nice it was to have the last few months with Jasmine is great. I couldn't post while in Jamaica and I just didn't … Continue reading Welcome to Jamaica
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 