We came home to an ugly letter from Jeff's aunt. I'm not sure what, if anything, to do about it. He had started to regrow a relationship with her last year in the wake of his grandmother's death, but they had a falling out before Jasmine's death related to money he inherited from his grandmother … Continue reading Sigh
Author: thefirespiral
Home Again, Home Again, Jiggety-Jig
We got in to the hotel at 3:30 AM this morning -- the flight was delayed 12 HOURS. Getting home was a nightmare, but other than that, the vacation was wonderful. I will write more about it when I can prop my eyes open without the aid of caffeine.
On Our Way
We're on our way to Chicago today... leaving in a few hours. We pick up my parents at the airport at 3:30 and then check into our hotel. We have to be at O'Hare at 4 AM tomorrow morning. Ugh. That is so freaking early! I THINK I read in the travel catalog that there … Continue reading On Our Way
Happy Birthday, Jeff!
Today is Jeff's 35th birthday. Happy birthday to you, honey. No, you're not 26, and frankly, I'm glad! 😉 If you would like to email Jeff a birthday greeting, his address is javias@verizon.net. Last night he asked what kind of card Jasmine would have gotten him. I think I will go to the store and … Continue reading Happy Birthday, Jeff!
Uh Huh
Recent events in my coven... I'm not even sure I'm in a place where I can have the objectivity I need to journal about it. Maybe in a few days I'll try to put down a timeline of the pertinent events. I know there are lessons to be learned from it and am in the … Continue reading Uh Huh
Resolutions for Bereaved Parents
This is from a grieving parents email list I've joined. I like it. Resolutions for Bereaved Parents * I will grieve as much and for as long as I need, determining my own time-table. * I will grieve the way that suits me best, and I will express my feelings the way I choose. * … Continue reading Resolutions for Bereaved Parents
Rated R for Language
We spent the afternoon getting Gabrielle's room ready for new furniture. I haven't spent too much time in there because it still looks like Jasmine will stroll in at any minute and complain about Gabrielle wearing her clothes. And she would complain, because that seems to be Gab's favorite thing these days -- Jasmine's clothes. … Continue reading Rated R for Language
Argante’s Moon
Reflections on tonight's moon ritual... Information on Argante is offered here: http://www.prairiefirecoven.org/marmoon04.html Basics: Cedar and I established sacred space in preparation for the ritual. This involved casting the circle, calling the elements, acknowledging Lugh and drawing Argante (the Lady of the Lake who gave Arthur his sword) down into me. The other participants were not … Continue reading Argante’s Moon
Anger
There is a place that I am afraid to go and that place is anger. I am angry that I wasn't able to be with Jasmine the day they intubated her. I don't know what difference it would have made because I felt at the time she was still going to be okay, but it … Continue reading Anger
Everywhere
Jasmine is everywhere. There are photos in every room of this house. Drawings, notes, art projects. Her room is as she left it, more or less. I think this is why it's so hard to really feel that she's gone. It seems like she's going to wander into the living room any minute, chewing on … Continue reading Everywhere
by the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea 